Friday, February 13, 2015

To the broken hearts on Valentine's.

Some of us find it a little harder being single on Valentine's Day. Truth is, I feel the same way too 'cause for a very very long time, I truly believed that I've found the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with; my forever Valentine. Then again, life has a way of sneaking up when we least expect and hitting us way below the belt. I mean who'd have thought that the same love which started off perfectly and felt so right could possibly become the scariest experience ever. Perhaps that's why we call it the crazy little thing.

It's always easy at the beginning. We were absolutely certain of what we felt and love took care of the rest. We even talked about the future like we had a clue. I never knew what went wrong later on or when it actually did. But all these time later, I've stopped searching for answers for I know better now. I loved him more than he ever loved me 'cause I did everything to switch the scales. I tore at my own seams thinking that if I recreated myself by dressing the way he likes me to dress or by behaving the way I think he'd like me to behave, he'll fall for me the same way I fell for him. It took me years to finally realize, understand and draw a fine line between determination and desperation.

Heartbreaks are an odd kind of pain. You're perfectly fine physically, yet it hurts like hell. It's a painful uphill journey and the pain lingers long after the cut heals. What makes it worse is when you reminisce, even if they were uplifting memories. Then there are moments when you think that it's going to be a different day, that things are finally getting back on track, only to realize that those moments fade away rapidly, in a measure of a heartbeat.

Moving on isn't about rolling out of bed one day and suddenly not having the same feelings for a particular someone anymore, that by some kind of sorcery, all the yearning disappears. It's really far far far less miraculous than that. You'll love and miss that person just the same but you'll also gradually learn to not let that loving and missing interfere with the rest of your life.

So here's to all you singles who faced a break up or unrequited love and is nursing a broken heart. Happy Valentine's Day! Take your time to heal and somewhere down the road, someone deserving will give that old heart of yours a brand new beat!

Photos by Ing
Editing by yours truly
"In order to move on, you must understand why you felt what you did and why you no longer need to feel it." -Mitch Albom

With love,
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Clarabelle Faith

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